Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Billy Joel Love Affair

So I'm utter in love with Billy Joel. Yes I know he's old, really old.. well in comparison to my 30 years -- he's double my age, but still... the man has a deep soul and has to be sensitive have you heard his music? The really good stuff, not "Piano Man." Don't get me wrong, Piano Man is a catchy song and clearly made his career, but seriously, it's the same four or five chords over and over again. No, his better songs are scattered throughout -- Vienna, Until the Night, Scenes from an Italian Restaurant, Innocent Man, She's always a woman, Stellito, She's Got a Way.. those are the good ones.. or a few of them anyway. :)

I fell in love over his songs many many times.. :)

Monday, June 29, 2009

Casinos

So I went to a casino this weekend.

I have always been against gambling. Now, I do know lots of people who do it and enjoy it, but I am not one of these people, nor will I ever be. Maybe because every dime in my life is budgeted for something else or maybe I'm just to cheap, but I just feel guilty wasting money on a slot machine or a poker game when I'm not getting anything, whatsoever, out of it. It's not really entertaining -- all you do is push a button, no strategy, no thinking, just insert money and push button. At least if I'm going out to eat I'm getting a meal, if I'm shopping I'm getting clothes.. i get NOTHING from a casino. It WAS interesting to see the place we went, but I'll not go back.. It's just not my thing.

Now, other people do enjoy it and I don't judge that. If it's entertaining to you, great, it's just not MY thing.

Friday, June 26, 2009

PMS and Fake People

So, I realized that I'm hugely PMSing today when on the way to work my bra strap slid down my arm and I almost came unglued -- cursing my bra, cursing my life, cursing the street signs, cursing the stop light... yea it was a rough morning.

Then one of the grads made a comment that, again, almost set me off for no reason. She made a comment about how much she hated this person because she was "fake."

I hear that a lot "I hate her, she's so fake." You can't hate someone because they are fake, you can hate them because they are a bitch, but you can't hate someone just because they are fake. EVERYBODY is fake. It's a part of freaking life. EVERYONE has someone they have to deal with that they don't like, but have to be nice to anyway. That's being "fake."

When someone says they hate someone for being fake, what they really should say is, "I hate her for being a backstabbing bitch." That's legitimate, but hating people because they are fake is hypocritical because I guarantee that there are moments, days, hell even entire years, when you are fake to other people. Grow up, fake people are a fact of life and hating others takes waaaaayy to much of your energy. Instead of hating people, just choose not to deal with them. When you are forced to, be polite (or fake as you would call it) keep it impersonal, and then when it's over LET IT GO. When you hate people you are giving them way too much control over your emotions. That's what hate is.. letting someone else control your emotions. I don't really hate people, either I like you or I don't deal with you unless I have to. That's just the way it is. It's called BOUNDARIES people.. develop some.

Though I may be emotionally deficient because I get over things really quickly. I have a HOT temper, but it burns out quickly. I'm not going to lie, it's a blessing. As long as I get a chance to express my anger (either to the person or to someone who sympathizes and is going through the same thing) then I tend to get over things fairly quickly. Now if I don't' get that chance to vent/express my anger then it stews.. but that doesn't' happen often. Don't get me wrong, I do get frustrated, but I have the attention span of a gnat (which is why I will never live my dream of being a novelist.. I don't have the attention span) so I forget things quickly. I like it that way!

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Sad Day in Hollywood

So, what a sad day in hollywood, eh? Farrah Faucett and Michael Jackson -- same day. We will now observe a moment of silence on their behalf -- please read each dot separately....................................................................................................................................................
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Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Who Freaking Cares..

Who freaking cares where the governor was or what he was doing... he's a freaking governor... it's not like the world will fall apart if a governor disappears for a few days..

So he was boinking someone from Argentina... isn't that between him and his wife? I mean seriously, why do I care who he's boinking? It's not like every other politician out there isn't boinking someone besides their wife.. this guy (and a few others) just got caught and the others didn't.

I hate the mainstream media.. vultures... report on something that means something to the world at large.. stop making a big deal out of personal lives. They are all crooked -- what does it matter if this one or that one is screwing around... they are all out for their own best interests...

Why don't they focus on real issues in this world and use their venue for good.. there are tons of people who are homeless, jobless, poor.. focus on these individuals and force the government to consider them when they are making decisions.. instead of their political positioning now that this governor can't be the next republican presidential candidate...

The media has such opportunity to change the world.. but they don't report the real world.. they report the rich world.. it pisses me off... 10% of the world controls 80% of the wealth.. why are they focusing on that 10%.. focus on the other 80% and making the world better for the most amount of people.. not the people who already have more than they need...

We have some important decisions being made for us.. the news should be focusing on that.. the governmental health care option.. let's report the facts on this.. let's help the country learn that in a market economy more competition equals a better deal.. the more providers in the market forces everyone to have reasonable prices or they are gone... think about this.. if the government offered a cheap health care option -- then the other health care providers would be forced to reduce their premiums in order to compete with the cheaper version offered by the government. Then you'd have more choices in what you could afford... and could choose the best one for you -- instead of being forced into the one your work offers at the non-negotiable prices which are already out of control.

Statically, countries that have a government sponsored health care system report at being happier in their lives than Americans.

Think about this: Small businesses are the majority of employers in this country. They are begin run out of business because of health care prices. If the government offered an option, their employees could choose that and then that employer could afford to hire more people because the cost of each employee to that owner has been reduced. This means MORE JOBS -- the same for large employers... (P.S. that wasn't my idea -- I stole it from Howard Dean)

Of course, as a whole, Americans are lazy and uninformed and do deserve what they get, however it sucks that I know what I want and can't get it because Bobby Joe next door can't be bothered to turn off Rock of Love long enough to educate himself about what is going on in the world and is just listing to what the idiots on Fox News are telling him.. IF he even watches any kind of news at all...

*Stepping off soap box -- still a little hot under the collar*

Ugly Shirt Day

So, I'm totally wearing the ugly shirt today and lovin it.. I think I love it because it's the ugly shirt.

Instead of the traveling pants, I should write the ugly shirt saga... (I never saw the traveling pants, so it can't be a rip off, ehh).

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

New Furniture

So, the other assistant director in my office is leaving at the end of this week to move to another school. Last week we (two of my guy friends and I) helped them load their moving truck. In the process they decided that they didn't want to take their desk or bookshelf and asked if anyone wanted it.

Being the cheap ass that I am, I jumped at it. So I now have a nice new desk and book shelf in my apartment! :) Ben and New Adam did all the moving, I just drove the van we stole after hours for the move. :) (It's not REALLY stealing -- we took it back)

So now I get to move everything in my apartment all around to fit the desk and bookshelf. Actually, just the book shelf, I already had a space for the desk in my enormous kitchen that is currently still lacking a dining room table. :(

Monday, June 22, 2009

The Ugly Shirt Follow Up


I was asked for a picture of the ugly shirt pattern.. here it is!

Enjoy!!

Please notice the paisley, floral, stripes all mixed together. What you cannot see is on the left is a black, white, and tan zebra print. The tan just makes it look like it's dirty -- which is why I noticed the ugliness of the shirt to begin with.. I thought the tan was dirt.

But the colors are nice.. blues and greens... that's all I saw... SIGH.. I need to pay better attention to things.

Sunday, June 21, 2009

Voters Rights

So, Friday night I went out with my friend Heather and her husband and some of their friends. By the time I got there they had already had several drinks (I believe they were drinking Long Islands prior to my arrival). Anyway, midway into the evening, Heather's husband Nick, starts talking politics.

Now, as any sane and sober person, I tried to keep my mouth shut. Honestly, I did! However, Nick is so conservative that he is too conservative to consider himself a republican -- he thinks republicans are becoming incredibly liberal. Because of this, he didn't vote in the last election. He liked neither candidate so he did not vote.

Now, if you are not familiar with my politics I will tell you that I'm extremely liberal. In fact, I'm so liberal I'm almost a socialist. Sue me, I think it's the government's job to make the people do what is best for the greater good, not the individual. We don't do this on our own -- we are out for number 1... (which explains the current financial situation) anyway I won't go into it. So during our discussion it came up that Nick didn't vote in our last election because he didn't like Obama, but also hated McCain so he refused to vote. From their interaction, I could tell this was a sore point between Heather and Nick. Heather, of course, subscribing to the idea that if you don't vote in the election then you have no right to bitch about who is in power or what kind of job they are doing.

That is something you hear a lot around election time. If you don't vote you can't bitch. And I imagine, if you know me at all, you'd probably assume that I'd agree with that. You would be wrong, however.

One of the most beautiful things about this country IS our right to bitch about what our government is doing - regardless if we voted or not. This country was founded on the principle that the people should have a voice and should be able to express their opinions about what the government is doing without the fear of retribution or accusations of treason. Other countries (Iran for example?) do not have this fundamental right. So we need to make double sure we value this right. So, my opinion? Bitch away, Nick. If you didn't like any of the candidates then it is 100% your right to bitch about the government, however do more than that.. volunteer for a movement or write a letter to your senator about changing the two party system and campaign funding. The system is failing you so do something about it! Maybe you'll love/hate what's going on so much that you'll vote next time.

I truely believe that everyone should exercise their right to vote, to do otherwise is lazy. Unfortunatley, sometimes it comes down to choosing the lesser of two evils, but that's the way politics work sometimes. You have a voice -- USE IT!

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Ahh Friday.. Why do you hate me?

So, I think someone may actually be reading this thing, which is cool!

So I had kind of a rough week. Not really rough in any real sense, just been exhausted all week. Last night we helped Jenny and Tom load their moving truck, it was actually fun -- if moving can ever be termed fun. However, I'm getting a really nice desk and bookshelf out of the deal -- score!

Tonight I was at home reading and my friend Heather randomly called me. Now Heather and I have been friends since undergrad and she lives in Terre Haute, which is awesome, right? Well I've been back almost a year and this was the second time I've seen her since I've been back.. LOL the first time with the second week I was back. I vow to make more of an effort to spend time with her! So I tartted up and met her, her husband, and some dude she had picked out to set me up with. Now, I'm not big on set ups, but I hadn't seen heather in a year so I went. We had a good time, though I learned that the dude was 22. No offense, but I'm 30... there IS an age limit.. he was really nice, if a bit shy and akward... he has potential, if I were 8 years younger (EIGHT FREAKING YEARS) and into shy and akward.

Heather's heart was in the right place. ;)

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

My Favorite Websites

So, in my stumbles, I've come across some really fun websites that I thought I'd share.

Favorite cooking Site:
The Pioneer Woman Cooks: http://thepioneerwoman.com/cooking/

Favorite Social Networking Site:
Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/

Favorite Classifieds Site:
Craig's List: http://www.craigslist.org (just watch out for those pesky serial killers if you're selling sex - I don't sell anything, I just like to shop! I DON'T SHOP FOR SEX THOUGH-- usually furniture and pet stuff.. just wanted to make that clear)

Favorite People Watching Site:
Plenty of Fish: http://www.plentyoffish.com (it's a dating site, but the posting boards are pretty funny)

Favorite "News" Site:
The Onion: http://www.theonion.com (it's funny made up news)

Favorite Pee-Your-Pants-Funny Site:
Fail Blog: http://www.failblog.org (oh man I just sit and cry and try to breathe I laugh so hard at this site -- It's like Funniest home videos unedited and online)

Favorite Shopping Sites (there are several):
Books and Stuff: Amazon.com: http://www.amazon.com
Clothes: Fashion Bug: http://www.fashionbug.com
Clothes: Lane Bryant: http://www.lanebryant.com
Clothes: Avenue: http://www.avenue.com
Cheap Crap: Lakeside Collecton: http://www.lakesidecollection.com
Cheap Crap: BryLane Home: http://www.brylanehome.com

I'm sure there are more, but these are the top ones. I really REALLY like to shop, but I only buy books.. I just can't part with my money for much else. :)

If you're a cook, check out Pioneer Woman. She's funny, and posts step by step pictures of the dishes she cooks.

If you are down, check out failblog.org.. that can pick up the slowest of days!

love to all!

Monday, June 15, 2009

Unavailable men

So I just read an article about why women are attracted to unavailable men or "Bad Boys." It was total bullshit. First of all, it was written by a man, which explains the bullshitness (apparently I'm creating a word tonight). How in the hell does a man think he knows why women do anything? Until you have lived in this world, this particular society, as a woman, with all of the pressures and images of women we are supposed to live up to, you absolutely cannot discuss why women do anything.

"So, Steph," you ask, "Why ARE women attracted to unavailable men?" Being one of these women, myself, I will tell you.

Because if he is unavailable we can say to others and tell ourselves that his unavailability is the reason he is not with us. If he's a bad boy then we say it's his "issues" that are the reason. He won't commit, he has trust issues, etc. It lays the blame squarely on him. Why do we need a reason to blame him? Because secretly we know in our souls that we are not really good enough, pretty enough, thin enough... worthy to date, period. So if we choose someone we can't have permanently then we don't have to face the fact that we feel unworthy, we just blame the men in our lives for being unworthy.

The question is not why do we choose unavailable men, the question is why don't we feel good enough to date the good guys. Good guys take care of us, and want to be good to us. We don't feel like we deserve that.

So, why don't we feel like we deserve it? If I had to guess I'd say because none of us look like Kate Moss or Claudia Schiffer or Naomi Campbell. We don't recognize, on a fundamental level, that Kate, Claudia, and Naomi don't really look like that either, we just see that we don't look like their picture in Cosmo so there must be something lacking in us fundamentally. Now pair that with a crappy home life and you've got real issues.

So if you are male, and are interested in a woman who considers you "just a friend" realize that she doesn't love herself so she will never be able to believe that she is worthy of your adoration. Love yourself enough to move on to someone else who can love you.

If you are female, and always find yourself interested in that guy friend who is not into "your type" or that guy in the leather jacket who treats you like shit, but can be so sweet when it's just the two of you -- you deserve better. You don't have to look like a model -- they get airbrushed. Coming from a woman who has more men friends than women friends I will tell you that guys like women who are confident and real. Be true to yourself, love who you are, and they will swarm to you like bees to honey.

Men want someone they can cuddle up to (though they won't admit it), not someone who will break when they hold them close.

Note: I did NOT have a crappy homelife. I was blessed with wonderful parents who did a wonderful job with my sister an I. I, however, have weight issues, which explains my men issues. :)

Friday, June 12, 2009

The Ugly Shirt

So, last week my friend Jess was here and we did a little shopping. I bought a couple of shirts that I liked the cut of the shirt and the colors in the shirt.

So yesterday I was wearing one of them. When I left work to head to Moggers (our thursday happy hour place) I looked down at my shirt and was struck dumb. In all honesty, it was the ugilest shirt I've ever seen. When I picked it out I must have focused on the cut and the colors in the shirt but not on the pattern.. it was paisley with a zebra print and some polka dots.. it looked like a mu mu. Awful.

To be honest, I like the cut enough that I'll wear it again, but damn the pattern was ugly!!

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Chicken Cordon Bleu Pasta Bake -- Mmmmmm

So I love to cook and like to take what I have and see what I can come up with.

Chicken Cordon Bleu Pasta Bake

1 Rotisserie chicken, de-boned -- I use mostly the white meat, but I like dark meat too
1 box of Spiral pasta, cooked al dente
2 cans cream of chicken soup (I use the low sodium)
2 cups of diced ham (I buy it that way)
1 can of mushroom pieces and stems, drained
1 cup of milk (I say one cup, but really just enough to make it a sauce-like texture -- not too runny, but somewhat pourable)
1 8oz package of shredded swiss cheese
1/4 cup butter, melted
1 cup bread crumbs (just enough to soak up the butter for a topping)
1/2 cup grated parmesan

Preheat oven to 350 degrees

Mix soup, ham, mushrooms, milk, and 2/3 of the swiss together in a large bowl. Spray a 9x13 glass baking dish with non-stick cooking spray. Spread pasta and chicken in pan and cover with soup mixture (you should be able to see the mixture coating the pasta and chicken on the bottom of the pan, if not it's not runny enough -- add a bit more milk and mix it all together). Cover that with the remaining 1/3 of the swiss.

In a small bowl combine the melted butter, bread crumbs, and parmesan until moist (it should be moist but not runny -- if runny add more bread crumbs until it's crumbly not dry). Spread over the top of the swiss cheese.

Cover with foil and bake for 45 min or until bubbly (I'd check it at 30 min). Uncover and notch up the heat to 450 degrees and bake another 15 - 20 minutes or until the topping begins to turn a golden brown.

Serve hot. Makes a 9x13 in pan of it ( I have no freaking idea how many servings that is -- I usually eat on it for a week as my philosophy is cook once eat for a week).

Stumbling...

So I was "Stumbling" around the internet and came across a "How to Speak Chinese" tutorial, but with actual helpful phrases like, "no more, I'm full" or "No more, I'm already drunk, sorry" (which would be helpful to me should I ever visit China).

Something you should know about me is that I enjoy learning funny phrases in other languages because it makes me laugh. For instance, last year I learned how to curse in Italian. I now know how to curse in French, German, and Italian AND I know how to say "I'm from Jupiter" in Spanish. So to find these helpful phrases in China spelled trouble. Most of them were innocent, but then I came across one, that made laugh so hard I couldn't breathe. It's written Phonetically below:

"Ara! Onara Suru tsu-mori datta Keh-do, un-chi ga de-chatta."

Which means: "Oops! I meant to fart, but poop came out."

You just spit milk out your nose, didn't you? or Coffee?

Anyway, about "Stumbling" if you have not discovered this yet, please go to mozilla.com and search it. It's an amazingly fun and interesting tool to browse the internet.

School Girl Crush

EXPLICIT LUSTING COMMENTARY BELOW... PG-13 rated..

Do you remember the days of school girl crushes? How fun it was to whisper about that certain person you liked? To guess and speculate with girlfriends about whether he was into you or not? To make eye contact and smile shyly? I am 30 years old and I'm proud to say that I still get school girl crushes. I typically refer to them as "Non-sexual crushes," but yep, I still get them.

I have a new one.

I call him "Hot Handyman David"

He's the maintenance man type person for my apartment, well one of them.

and he is FREAKING HOT. Of course, it takes a lot more than looks to turn my head. In fact, most of the time the hot guys are the ones I avoid and automatically dislike... I typically get crushes on the "cute" guys or sometimes the ugly ones too... because it's not really about what a guy looks like -- he has to have something else going for him. This guy does.. he is sooo nice. Shara, my land lady's daughter, is a friend of mine and she gave me the scoop on Hot Handyman David. Apparently, he's a crazy magnet and is going through a custody battle over his little girl with his ex... Shara said the ex is a nut job, but that David is a sweetie. He also works part time as a home caregiver to a special needs kid... which is uber cool and makes up for the crazy magnet thing...

Hey, it's not like I'm going to date him, though. I just like to look at him. :) He's out of my league, so I just get to stare at him while he does manly things around my apartment like lifting heavy stuff, fixing things, getting all sweaty... sigh... Oh sorry.. I got distracted..

So, funny story about Hot Handyman David.

Carol, my land lady, is out of town for the next two weeks. Now, in case I haven't mentioned this Carol is the mother of my good friend Craig's wife, Shara (who I am also now good friends with, but I've known Craig for years and years). So when she stopped by before she left she told me to call Craig and Shara if I had any problems. Well, yesterday the fan in my bathroom quit working. Not a huge issue, but in my apartment it kind of is because my bathroom is under a stairwell with no windows and is a TINY space anyway.. with no fan it's ridiculously hot and will grow mold quickly. Anyway, so I call Craig and let him know. This morning he calls me in my office (he also works at ISU) to tell me that David was going to be over to fix it today. Cool.

I go home for lunch everyday to let Sassy out, so today was no different. Well, except that I was excited when I saw Hot Handyman David's blue truck parked out front (his truck is the same color as my car). So I let Sassy out and when we get back in the house, of course she makes a beeline for David. She loves men in general, but she really likes David. Mainly because he rolls around in the grass with her, well and he's a dude (She's kind of boy crazy). So he gets down off the ladder to play with her a bit. He's so cute and he's telling me what he is doing and yadda yadda yadda hessohot... So I notice that he's in a sweatshirt and track pants.. now I wasn't implying that I wanted him naked or anything, but I did make a comment about why was he wearing a sweatshirt and pants in this humid weather. His response was that if he was going to have to be up in the ceiling he needed the protection.. then he said, "but I guess I could go ahead and take this shirt off.. " Ahh.. NICE.. he had a tank top on underneath.. and I swear I got distracted by his shoulder and arm muscles... Umm, yea.. I'm not really subtle at all when I'm interested in someone.. LOL I'm about as subtle as a freight train... So, for lunch, I parked my ass in the chair in my dining room and watched Hot Handyman David fix the fan in my bathroom. At one point he was digging in his toolbox and Sassy crawled on her belly over to him and climbed up in his lap and was licking his neck... not going to lie.. I was jealous of my dog for a moment..

So as I'm chatting with HH David (as my sister was referring to him) Craig texts me and says "Your fan is fixed. I tried to get David to stay until you got there for lunch, but he had to go to work. he was going to take a shower to make sure it worked.." Yeah, Craig knows I have a crush.. and to be honest, knowing Craig, he probably told David. So I told him that David was there and about sassy licking his neck and me being jealous. He laughed.

Craig and Shara are having a cookout on Friday at Shara's folks estate (this place looks like a freaking country club -- her dad is the Athletic Director at ISU) and Craig said he'd invite David for me.. LOL Craig is also the one who found me this apartment... what a guy.. always lookin out for me, eh?

Monday, June 8, 2009

Ambition

I need some ambition, does anyone have any to spare that I can borrow?

I sat here all day thinking of the things I need to get done, but what did I do? Read a book, took a nap, played with the dog, went for a walk, read a book, went to the store, read a book... and so on... I think I need to move my desk out of my living room and put it in my kitchen so that I can sit down and actually work on stuff. In my living room it becomes a catch all for my purse, keys, etc...

I'm teaching a class in the fall and haven't even begun to read my text books and figure out the syllaubs. Not a huge deal since its only june, but I really have to have it finished before August 1 because that's when my schedule gets crazy busy.

I also haven't looked at training in about a month.. which is wrong because I need to get it done as well. Jenny is leaving at the end of THIS month, which means that for a while (at least) I'll be running things on my own which will be crazy -- plus finalizing training, plus creating a new programming model, plus getting ready to teach a class, plus hiring Jenny's replacement..

It's looking to be a somewhat stressful summer... SHEESH.. summer is supposed to be the DOWN time at a university!!

Sunday, June 7, 2009

He's Just Not That In To You...

If you haven't seen this movie, rent it! It's cute, funny, and sadly -- a true representation of how women really act toward men after a first date.. LOL I watched it with Jess and we started dissecting the guys behaivor in the movie.. ha ha

Friday, June 5, 2009

Desegregation of the Fat Girls...

So one of my all time favorite places to shop is Fashion Bug. They have a decent selection of fat girl clothes at really reasonable prices -- and amazing sales. Now, for anyone who isn't fat you may not have noticed but fat girl shopping is different than skinny girl shopping. Typically if there are fat girl clothes (and there aren't in MOST stores -- and a lot of time even if they have it the selection is geared toward the Mu mus and granny clothes) they are in the back of the clothing section, unmarked, and hidden so that, unless you are fat, you don't even know that special sizes for the big girls exist. What kind of message does this send to the fatties of the world? The same message that the media and your parents have been sending since we are small children... "Don't acknowledge the fatties, it will embarrass them if you stare or notice that they are fat."

Trust me, we are very aware that we are fat. You noticing or looking at us isn't going to make it worse.. in fact most fat people already assume that everyone is staring and making fun of them anyway so whether you actually are or not doesn't really matter. (I like the word Fat and Fat Girl more than Big girl, bigger, plus size, etc.. plus while it may make people initially uncomfortable they tend to open up to me once they realize that I have a sense of humor about who I am and am OK with what I look like)

But the message that we are embarrassing and must be hidden is damaging. If a fat girl wears clothes that actually fit and don't hang off her, she is made fun of (now if they are too tight and you can see the outline of each of her rolls she needs some fashion help). But we are constantly bombarded with images of perfect beauty that even size 8's are damaged by and the fashion industry is made for them. How do you think those images affect people who are a size 18 or 28? And on top of that you have well meaning friends and family saying things like "You'd be beautiful if you'd lose weight" or "I don't care if you're fat, I love you anyway." Like I'm not good enough as I am or that they have to go against society to be my friend...

They mean well... but comments like those can slowly kill a person -- so keep them to yourselves... The other one that kills me is when other fat people, who just happen to be less fat than me.. try to tell me how to or that I need to lose weight... PLEASE...

I'm not going to lie and say that I'm HAPPY with my looks, but nor would I say I'm unhappy... Life would sure be a lot easier if I were skinny -- but I've never been one to take the easy road, nor have I ever been one to conform to what other people want from me either... Either take all of me as I am or get the hell out of my way... that's pretty much my motto.. I don't sit and obsess about my weight - hell last time I went to the doctor the nurse almost fell out of her chair when she took my blood pressure... it was on the higher end of normal, but it was perfectly normal and could have been high because the doctor had just pissed me off... when I say normal - it was perfectly normal for a skinny person.. she almost fell out of her chair because based on my weight she was expecting it to be much higher -- same with my glucose test... HA! Take that health and diet industry!! Apparently I didn't need to lose weight to lower my blood pressure.. just needed to change jobs.. LOL

Anyway, back to Fashion Bug (I'd apologize for the fat rant, but I'm not sorry at all). So, I love Fashion Bug because the fat girl clothes weren't in the back they were just half of the store and the skinny girl clothes were the other half and they have clothes geared toward my age and younger -- as well as mu mus and granny clothes. I've been shopping there for years and typically when you go in to a Fashion Bug -- no matter which one-- the fat girl clothes (or "Plus Sizes" if you will) were on the right side of the store and the skinny girl (Or "Misses" if you will) were on the left. Now I like Fashion bug because their clothes are cheap, and I spill so I'm not ruining a $100 shirt. Well my friend Jess is down for the weekend and we went shopping. Fashion Bug was a good place to go because she isn't fat and I am... So we walk in and I head to the right, which is typically my section and I direct her to the left. But I'm looking and I see plus sizes on one rack and Misses sizes on the rack next to it. There was a sales clerk standing there so I said, "Am I stupid or are these sizes mixed up?" She said that their corporate offices reorganized their stores and instead of the fat and skinny sides (My words not her's) they now have the casual clothes on one side and the dress/work clothes on the other. Clothes are sized by rack and not by the side of the store. She said eventually all of the clothes will be intermingled and they will no longer have "Plus" sizes separate from the rest of the sizes. My response was "Oh, so they desegregated the fat kids huh?" she gave me something of a shocked look but it startled a laugh out of her.

So, friends, Fashion Bug is taking a large step into normalizing fat people. We now get to intermingle with skinny people when shopping for clothes...

Oh no, what if we convert them and everyone starts thinking that it's ok to be fat and just be who you are as long as you are happy? What if fat people stop thinking they are freaks of nature and that they are just as good as everyone else? What would the world come to?

Probably a much happier place... desegregation is a good thing

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Nooowww I remember...

So a good friend of mine is leaving town. He and his wife are moving to Maryland on Friday so that she can finish up her PhD and he took a job at a university down there. Last night was his going away party. The night started at Moggers for dinner and what a good time. Jenny brought her two year old who was the entertainment during dinner. She's adorable, but wow what a bundle of energy -- I couldn't help but compare her energy to that of my puppy... it's the same.

Then we left Moggers and went to 7th and Elm, which is a bar. This morning, my body has been violently reminding me why I do not drink cheap liquor... well and I haven't drank like that in about a year... Ahh I miss birthday parties at Pub...

I was excited because typically when we go out, it's just for a drink or two so no reason to get dressed up or anything, but since last night was a celebration I tarted up a bit... by the reaction I got from my friends you'd think I had a face lift... they kept commenting on how nice I looked. I didn't even do THAT much, just touched up my makeup a tiny bit and changed into a shirt that showed a tiny amount of cleavage... I guess I've let my bar attire fall apart and need to change it up a bit more often.

On a non-hungover, happy note: Jess is coming today until Saturday! that will be fun -- we always do wine and cheese while we play Mario Party... Awww.. I'm so looking forward to it!! :) I think she's my first over night visitor!!!